Wednesday 19 April 2017

Staying True

STAMP OF APPROVAL
Being a visionary, when 2017 commenced I decided to create a vision board for things and attributes I'd want to achieve in the year, similar to what I'd done with other years. One of these attributes being to remain true to oneself in all avenues of life.

With the existing belief that I had always done my best to remain true to myself , I was mislead into thinking this would be as easily attainable. Isn't it funny how when one makes a plan to set a foot forward the universe somehow creates gravity against that movement?

 I recently found myself in an acquaintanceship where it's activities didn't quite gel with who I am, what I believe in, what I stand for and what I am looking for, but for some reason I found myself lingering in it longer than what I believe I should have. I knew that I know better but found myself baffled as to why I was even debating whether to linger longer or not. Maybe I was awaiting some stamp of approval? Something to validate or right what was not?

We might not realize it but at times we allow ourselves to stay in situations which harm and take from us but choose to remain in these situations because what will people say, how will they look at me? If I stand up and audibly voice my stand point I might not get that stamp of approval, I might be less popular or it might take from my demeanor...

But...

BE TRUE & STAY TRUE

With this picture which happens to be identical to the one on my vision board, I knew I had to gather the courage to reclaim my truth, because truth be told, I knew I was lying to myself. I knew the acquaintanceship had to come to an end sooner or later, I knew it didn't add the value I needed.

 Finding myself in this rather conflicting and confusing situation, I decided to take my courageous leap, I say courageous because it isn't always easy putting yourself and your needs first, you first become crowded by feelings and thoughts of "they will think I am selfish, demanding, unhappy etc." but I decided to listen to my heart, I decided to follow my intuition, I decided to stand for what I truly believe in and what I felt I needed. It wasn't easy but the choice to choose truth and authenticity is ever so liberating.

Love yourself enough to stay true to yourself, Invest in yourself enough to know what you deserve and what you don't, Commit to yourself , needs and beliefs and ascertain whether where you are is where you should or shouldn't be, lastly Discover your worth and potential and live on to embrace it... Doubt your doubts before you doubt your worth and potential.

-I am Pam, the Nubian Goddess, an Africa Woman of Substance-