I Was Never Buried, Only Planted

PERIOD OF GESTATION

Days were dark, friends were few, my world was caving in, clouds of depression looming over.

I thought it was over, that I was done. I imagined the warm rays of sunlight would never again caress my soul. All I had was a shell, a shell now covered in goosebumps...

Like a short sighted mortal, I didn't realize what I had thought a tomb was only a womb.

What I had imagined a burial, was only a period of gestation.

I didn't realize I was a seed planted, a seed awaiting a season of harvest, planted because God does not work in public, He works private, true to the formula of "from the inside-out".

I didn't want to compete as I thought I was complete.

I was a David now without a Goliath, the numbness of mediocrity threatening to cripple me.

I had constantly been chasing, chasing what I thought  I would become, not realizing I already was, being an acorn at the time, did not mean I was never an oak tree. 

PRODUCT OF REFINEMENT

I went about life wanting to be a product of refinement but did not comprehend that refiners gold first goes through the fiery furnace. 

That the finest flour goes through degrees and levels of grounding.

That the finest fragrance comes from crushed seeds. 

Simply put, my pain was not in vain because exceptionalism can not be produced from normalcy.

 I needed to experience exceptional pain to have exceptional power.

God's strength had to be justified in my weakness.

Like an arrow, I have been pulled back, farther and farther with more resistance, but the time to spring forth has come. I am being shot forth, further than what I ever have been in my life. 

Darkness no longer scares me because greatness does not germinate in public!

-I am Pam, The Nubian Goddess, An African Woman Of Substance-

This Life Owes Me Nothing

VICTIM OR VICTOR?

I recently came across a quote which said " Event + Outcome = Victim but Event + My Response = Victor"

I relate it to the often iterated statement of "Whether you think you are right or not, you're right". 

Realising that life owes me nothing was the beginning of a fulfilling, eye opening and thought provoking life. 

In your lifetime you might've heard people say "Good things come to those who wait" but there's been the counter which says, "Good things come to those who get up and get em". I tend to agree with the latter. I stopped waiting on life to happen, I went out, made critical decisions, took chances and risks, some have been rewarding and some not but those that have not,  have taught me some of life's greatest lessons. I chose to stop being a victim of circumstance, I chose to stand up and reintroduce myself to life. 

What am I saying? That door will not open unless you knock, that answer will not arrive unless the question has been asked, your circumstance will not change unless you stand up and do something about it, your next great opportunity is a step away... what is the common denominator here? Action! Life can't happen to you, you need to happen to life.

YOUR WORTH

You have got to know your worth. I choose to call it my currency. Are you a Dollar, a Pound, a Euro, a Rand? 

My currency determines my expenditure, it determines with whom I choose to invest. If there is no return on investment, compound growth or shares to market I will not invest there. You have got to know when to leave a table when growth or love is no longer served. TD Jakes taught, "Never find yourself in a room where all in it look to you for answers", you constantly need to feel inferior, you need to reach, glean and teach continually.

Life is a gift to be gifted back. Gift life in sending positive vibrations into its frequency, in building empires out of pebbles it's thrown at you, in getting back up each time you trip, in defining yourself and using that definition to assist others. 

Be a Doer, a Stance Taker, Become a Victor.

This life owes you nothing!

-I am Pam, The Nubian Goddess, An African Woman of Substance- 

Carried by Grace

A Calm and Stillness

She's been well acquainted in 3rd speech dialogue.

 Relaying experiences as though experienced by others other than herself. 

Staying objective in an effort to avoid being subjective.

She chooses not to do so today, today she will unmask herself and speak in 1st speech dialogue.

2018

A year that afforded me a roller-coaster of emotions, lessons and battles. 

A year that stripped me of everything I thought I had or knew. 

A year that passed like the blink of an eye but with scars that'll last a lifetime.

A year that unapologetically taught me, "there's more to life".

It is a year that buried me but in being a seed, I was only planted.

I have uprooted as a smarter, stronger and braver woman.

I have uprooted with horizons deepened and broadened.

I have uprooted with heightened pinnacles to reach.

Grace

 I am a product of Grace.

It has carried me from despair to a hope of a brighter tomorrow.

It has carried me from utter loss to unfathomable gain.

It has carried me from rags to riches.

It has carried me from a heart failed and bruised to a life renewed.

It has carried me from a life unfulfilled to a life densified.

Yesterday is gone but tomorrow beckons me.

I am a life full of scars but I am a life beautiful with lessons.

I am subject to mortal err but I am no victim of circumstance.

I have had setbacks but like a ray of sunshine I will always breakthrough.

You ain't seen nothing yet, this is #20NiceThings

-I am Pam, The Nubian Goddess, An African Woman of Substance-